About this episodeBig Court (Lowkey) reflects on his journey from a white rapper in the Sacramento horror-core scene to a surviv…AI summary
Big Court (Lowkey) reflects on his journey from a white rapper in the Sacramento horror-core scene to a survivor of addiction and a dedicated father, highlighting the creative power and personal costs of the 'Black Market' era. He discusses the formation of Siik Made, the impact of losing peers like P-Folks and Brother Lynch's sister, and his current pivot to writing and music post-recovery.
Key takeaways 5
Siik Made was formed independently between 24 Deep and Loaded to escape the manipulations and lack of mentorship present at Black Market, driven by a desire for creative purity rather than immediate financial gain.
Big Court attributes his lyrical style to East Coast influences (Public Enemy, Boogie Down Productions) and an early awareness of social/political issues from his upbringing in Hawaii, distinguishing him from the purely gangster narrative of his peers.
The Sacramento hip-hop scene's intensity is linked to trauma, poverty, and lack of male role models, creating a 'recipe' for self-destructive behavior that many artists struggled to overcome.
Big Court's decision to leave the industry and focus on fatherhood was catalyzed by the deaths of close friends (P-Folks, Michelle Lynch) and his own realization that he was 'scripting his life' towards destruction through addiction.
Recovery involved a severe physical withdrawal process (4-day drug protocol to prevent seizures) and a psychological shift from entitlement ('the world owes us') to accountability and 'living amends'.
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“I think we were never able to fulfill how much we needed to put out... I had gotten to a point in my life where the negativity was outweighing the positivity. It got to a point to where people were dying, cycling in and out of prison, in overdoses.”
▶ 42:35Big Court explains why Siik Made dissolved and why he stepped away from the music industry, citing the tragic losses of peers as a turning point.
“I was drinking heavy and hard... I had to take a 4-day drug protocol to prevent seizures and I lost my mind... talking to a 6 foot tall albino Raven with red eyes telling me bro it doesn't look good.”
▶ 1:01:47A vivid description of Big Court's severe alcohol withdrawal and hallucinations during his recovery process.
“Everything is on loan and God is the Repo Man. He can take it in any time... all of these are blessings but it can go at any time.”
▶ 1:12:17Big Court shares a perspective from recovery culture that helps him maintain gratitude and perspective on his survival.
“I'm not giving it any shine but... I knew this was coming for years... I was laying the brick work for this and I didn't even know it. We can speak spells over ourselves.”
▶ 1:05:16Reflecting on his song 'Me In The Bottle' from the album '21 Gun Salute', realizing his lyrics predicted his future addiction struggles.
Chapters & Sections (55)▼
0:00Reunion and Catch-up with Old Friendchapter3
0:00Friendship and Music Industry Discussion
1:46Murderous Psychosis and Ad Lib Dispute
2:58Interview with a Cali Boy Rapper
4:58Introduction to Breakdancing Culturechapter3
4:58Introduction to Breakdancing in the 80s
6:53Cultural Shock in Sacramento
8:14Meeting Lynch and Early Music Career
10:06Artist's Growth and Originality in Horror Corechapter2
10:06Artist's Growth and Horror Core Music
12:05Discussion on Kendrick and Lynch's Artistic Style
15:20Formation of Siik Made Crewchapter2
15:20Formation of Siik Made Crew
17:16Early Days of Music Videos and Crew Formation
19:39Navigating Hip Hop Gang Politics and Timeline Confusionchapter2
19:39Hip Hop Timeline Confusion and Gang Politics
21:19Racial Identity and Cultural Influence
24:05Reflecting on Past Actions and Manipulationschapter3
24:05Self-Awareness and Personal Growth Journey
25:37Artist Reflects on Industry and Street Life
26:51Childhood Trauma and Music Industry Expectations
28:53Artist Reflects on Early Music Industry Experienceschapter2
28:53Artist Discusses Past Music Industry Experiences
31:11Recording of Season of the Sick Album
33:08Interview about Music Collaboration and Era Shiftchapter3
33:08Interview about West Coast Bad Boys 2
35:12Career Shift After Gangster Rap Success
36:44Rapper Reflects on Rise to Fame
38:27Discussing Influences and Artistic Differenceschapter2
38:27Hip-Hop's Deeper Meaning and Political Talk
39:53Artist Evolution and Creative Expression
43:04Reflecting on Personal Loss and Friendshipchapter3
43:04Memorializing Loss and Legacy
44:39Friend's Death and Grief Experience
45:59Reflecting on Life and Business Experiences
48:27Raid Lynch and B's Disappearance and Legacychapter3
48:27Discussion about a missing rapper's legacy
50:41Criticism of Social Media and Public Perception
52:29Hip Hop and Authenticity in Music
54:09X and the Birth of Black Starchapter3
54:09Artist Collaborates with Incarcerated Business Partner
56:08Priorities Changing After Becoming a Father
57:22Reunion with Son After Time Apart
1:00:19Overcoming Addiction and Business Challengeschapter2
1:00:19Overcoming Addiction and Business Challenges
1:01:58Overcoming Addiction and Personal Growth
1:04:51Reflecting on Past Experiences and Creative Influenceschapter2
1:04:51Reflecting on Past Experiences and Creative Influences
1:06:38Sacramento's Hip-Hop Scene and Serial Killers
1:09:30Reflecting on mortality and past experienceschapter5
1:09:30Reflecting on Loss and Reconnecting with Friends
1:11:14Near Death Experience and Gratitude
1:12:35Life's Shortness and Creative Pursuits
1:14:04Reflecting on Friendship and Creative Pursuits
1:16:09Celebrity Friendship and Music Appreciation
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