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1:03
Pregnancy and Motherhood Experiences
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1:26
Hypothyroidism and Lyme Disease Diagnosis
1:34
Apology for Inconsistent Podcast Episodes
3:37
Overcoming Adversity and Sharing Her Story
4:08
Nervousness and Anxiety
5:13
Emotional Trauma and Recovery
6:14
Meeting Bert and His Niceness
7:17
Leaving the Porn Industry and Fear of Public Perception
8:19
Desire to Reclaim Personal Identity Outside of Porn Brand
9:21
Realization that Sex Work is a Temporary Career
10:23
Feeling Pressured to Stay in the Industry
10:53
Discussion of Body Image and Pressure
11:25
Realization of Distraction Tactics and Desire to Leave
11:55
Desire for a Normal Life and Comparison to Comedy
12:56
Comparison of Sex Work and Comedy, Feeling Exploited
13:27
The Power of Streaming and Building a Community
14:00
Leaving the Past Behind and Focusing on Personal Growth
14:30
The Importance of Healing and Self-Care
15:32
Trauma Response and the Need for Self-Reflection
16:33
Desire to Heal and Find Self-Love
17:05
Struggling with Identity and Codependency
18:07
Inner Child Work and Reconnection
19:11
Oversexualization and Loss of Self
19:42
Criticizing Unrealistic Body Images
20:13
Stockholm Syndrome and Psychological Abuse
20:43
Toxic Relationships and Exploitation
21:48
Personal Experience with Talk Therapy
22:21
Sharing a Special Session with Better Help Counselor
22:52
Choosing the Right Therapist
23:24
Factors to Consider When Selecting a Therapist
24:26
The Importance of Human Connection in Therapy
24:57
Lying to the Therapist and Feeling Pressure to Impress
25:29
Fear of Not Meeting Expectations in Therapy
25:59
Mental Health and Self-Care Challenges
26:29
Stressful Situations in Therapy and Transference
28:02
Dealing with Countertransference and Professional Duty
28:35
Processing Trauma, Workaholism, and Addiction
29:06
Addiction as a Coping Mechanism and Fear of Being Alone
30:39
Feeling Lost Without a Partner and Difficulty Functioning
31:10
Inspiration from Workaholics Anonymous Meeting
31:40
Realization about Crafting and Addiction
32:11
Discussion of Porn Addiction and Depression
32:43
Question about Open Relationships and Personal Growth
33:17
Open Relationships and Boredom
34:50
Healthy Relationship Expectations
35:53
Gaslighting and Unrealistic Relationship Expectations
36:25
Negative Reactions and Self-Esteem
37:57
Unwanted Advances and Boundaries
38:28
The Impact of Fame on Identity
39:31
Initial Recognition and Negative Reactions
40:02
Hate and Backlash from the Gaming Community
40:33
Swatting and Harassment Experiences
41:35
Adapting to the Pandemic Situation
42:06
Dennis Rodman's Influence and Blue Hair
42:36
Instagram and Blue Hair
43:08
Wigs, Pregnancy, and Health Issues
44:11
ZocDoc App for Doctor's Appointments
45:13
Initial Swatting Experience and Reaction
46:18
Subsequent Swatting Incidents and Consequences
47:20
Comparison of Response Times to Real Threats
48:21
How Trauma Affects the Brain and Body
48:51
Unconscious Triggers and Associations
49:22
Personal Experiences with Trauma and EMDR
50:26
PTSD Symptoms and Triggers
54:05
Dislike for 69 and Tetris Analogy
54:36
Adjusting During 69
55:07
69 as a Concert and Acrobatics
55:39
Squirting and Orgasms While Peeing
56:10
Mental vs Physical Aspect of Squirting
56:41
Personal Experience with Squirting and Bladder Problems
57:13
Adjusting to New Sexuality and Injury Recovery
57:44
Physical Therapy and Bladder Issues
58:17
Emotional Response to Injury and Recovery
59:19
Managing Pain and Addiction Concerns
1:00:20
Feeling Inspired and Uncomfortable
1:00:51
Not Being a Victim and Manifesting Reality
1:01:21
Sharing Personal Experience and Embarrassment
1:01:52
Constant Questions and Burden of Others' Concerns
1:03:26
Unfortunate Medical Treatment and EMT Intervention
1:03:58
EMT's Positive Impact and Personal Connection
1:05:00
Personal Reflections on Relationships and Sex Work
1:05:30
Foot Fetish Discussion and Theories
1:06:37
Unconventional Gun Associations and Flamethrowers
1:07:38
Psychiatrists' Theories and Cathexis
1:08:40
Feet Fetishes and Personal Preferences
1:09:12
Body Hair, Pubes, and Pheromones
1:09:42
Random Thoughts on Video Games and Podcast Life
1:10:14
Recommendations and Personal Gaming Preferences
1:10:46
Discussion of Specific Games (Alden Ring, Jedi Survivor, Stray)
1:11:16
VR and Augmented Reality Technology
1:12:18
Personal Anecdotes and Humor
1:13:53
Disney and Childhood Memories
1:14:23
Farm Work and Trust Issues
1:14:54
Hay Bales and Animal Care
1:15:26
Childhood Trauma and Empathy
1:15:57
Treating Children Like Adults and Personal Growth
1:16:29
Watching Children Grow and Learn
1:16:59
Comparing Human and Animal Behavior
1:17:29
Red Flags in Relationships
1:18:02
Partying and Altering Reality
1:19:35
Intention and Goal-Oriented Use of Mind-Altering Substances
1:20:06
Disney Adult Experience and Haunted Mansion
1:20:37
Trauma and Mushroom Use
1:21:09
Pandemic Experience with Mushrooms and Acid
1:21:41
Mental Hospital Stay and Unhinged Experience
1:23:14
The Impact of Trauma and Mental Illness on Daily Life
1:23:47
The Speaker's Experience with Hallucinogens and Mental Health
1:24:18
The Speaker's Anger and Grief Following Their Mother's Death
1:26:20
Initial Reaction to Loss and Grief
1:26:51
Struggling with Emotions and Trauma Therapy
1:27:23
Unconditional Love and the Difficulty of Grieving
1:28:25
Longing for Closure and Holding On to Memories
1:29:28
The Permanent Impact of a Pet's Love
1:29:59
Dogs' Unique Ability to Comfort Grief
1:30:30
Finding Closure and Trauma
1:31:34
Cloning Pets and the Search for a Replacement
1:32:05
Finding Comfort in a New Pet
1:32:36
Folding Laundry and Only Fans Content
1:33:07
Comedy on Only Fans and Censorship
1:33:39
Walmart and TV Appearance
1:34:11
General Psychological Information and Self-Diagnosis
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