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0:12
Early Life and Family Dynamics
0:30
Casino Lifestyle and Relationships
1:35
Missing Time with Children
2:06
Childhood and Family History
3:07
Moving to Whittier and Living Arrangements
3:38
Mother's Cutting and Drinking Habits
4:38
Father's Knowledge of Mother's Mental Health Issues
5:10
Mental Illness Stigma in the Past
6:12
Using Physical Appearance as a Coping Mechanism
7:16
First Exposure to Weed and Peer Pressure
8:18
Summer Visits and Smoking Weed
9:51
Getting a Job and Work Ethic
10:54
Importance of Perfection in Career
11:25
Advice to Young People and Personal Experience
12:26
Childhood Experiences with Parental Divorce and Addiction
15:17
Mom's Injury and Hospitalization Details
15:48
Super Bowl Sunday Incident
16:19
Hospitalization and Family Dynamics
16:49
Childhood Experiences with Father
17:54
Mental Health and Family Issues
18:25
Father's Drinking Habits and Doctor's Diagnosis
18:57
Emotional Reaction to Being Called an Alcoholic
19:59
Comparing Past and Present Societal Norms
21:32
Cox's Criminal Past and Infamy
22:34
Personal Family Issues and Trauma
23:36
Cox's Emotional Damage and Childhood Experiences
24:39
Feeling Unwanted and Abandoned
25:40
Finding Comfort in Sports
26:41
Escaping Abuse and Finding Independence
27:44
Building a Life and Family
28:14
Moving Up and Marriage Issues
28:46
Friendship and Divorce
29:17
Addiction and Changes
30:50
Leaving Corecraft and Disability
31:52
Initial Involvement in Drug Dealing
32:23
Scaling Up and Meeting New Connections
32:54
Finding a Lucrative Business Model
33:25
Expanding Operations and Building Relationships
36:04
Selling Quarter Pounds and Making Money
36:35
Comparing Street Level Dealers to Large-Scale Traffickers
37:08
Making a Good Living in the Drug Trade
38:42
Warning Against Getting Involved in Drugs
40:18
Real Estate Agent's Perspective on Illegal Activities
41:51
Comparison to the Feds and Their Tactics
42:22
Lessons Learned from Personal Experience
43:55
Using Fraud to Gain Allies and Influence
45:27
Maintaining a Good Name and Reputation
45:58
Escaping the Lower-Tier Drug World and Becoming a Distributor
47:33
Meeting Jennifer and Getting Pregnant
48:05
Lifestyle Changes After Selling Drugs
48:36
Casino Nights and Multiple Partners
49:07
The Game of Sex and Relationships
51:09
Free World and Dope Culture
51:40
Drug Use and Physical Appearance
52:11
Pregnancy and Parenting
54:45
Discovering Fatherhood and Emotional Reaction
55:17
Working Hard to Provide for Family
56:18
Regrets and Missed Opportunities with Children
1:02:33
Federal Involvement and Consequences
1:03:04
Lawyer Leeches and Misconceptions
1:04:38
Feds Don't Need Evidence to Convict
1:05:09
Not Getting Bail and Consequences
1:06:11
Mom's Hospitalization and Initial Diagnosis
1:07:20
Doctor's Assessment and Prognosis
1:08:54
Saying Goodbye to Mom
1:09:58
Mom's Passing and Raising Angel as a Single Parent
1:10:29
Angel's Family Situation and Support System
1:11:30
Emotional Bond with Angel and Leaving the Room
1:14:05
Initial Alarm and Confusion
1:15:08
Burglar or Cop? A Misunderstanding
1:16:10
Hiding and Waiting for the Feds to Leave
1:16:42
Confrontation and Arrest
1:17:46
Initial Arrest and Ride to San Bernardino
1:18:18
Confrontation with Police in the Car
1:18:49
Arrival at Federal Building and Holding Cell
1:19:21
Interrogation and Discovery of Wiretapping
1:21:25
Arrest and Co-Defendant Discussion
1:22:57
Subway Sandwiches and County Jail Conditions
1:23:29
Concerns about Sentence and Prison Life
1:25:04
Incarceration and Bail Disappointment
1:26:06
Frustration with the System and Lack of Cooperation
1:27:08
Realization of Situation and Loss of Hope
1:28:44
Feeling Frustrated and Broke
1:29:14
Realizing the Importance of Independence
1:29:45
Starting a Casino and Learning the Game
1:30:15
Learning from Experience and Dealing with Family Drama
1:31:17
Trying to Connect with Family and Get Information
1:32:19
Separation from Family and Unawareness of the Game
1:32:51
Realization and Regret about Not Seeking Help
1:33:22
Meeting with Kane and Snitching
1:34:23
Time in Prison and Sentencing Delays
1:35:58
Crafting a Sentence Reduction Strategy
1:36:29
Negotiating with the Prosecutor
1:37:00
Challenging Drug Purity Claims
1:38:31
Downward Departure and Sentence Reduction
1:40:05
Reflection on Bail and Sentence
1:40:35
Comparing County Jail to Other Facilities
1:41:06
TV and Entertainment in County Jail
1:41:37
Transition to Victorville and Life in a Holding Cell
1:43:11
County Experience and Fights
1:43:43
Receiving Clothes and Meeting Homies
1:44:15
Camp Introduction and Politics
1:44:46
Accusations of Snitching
1:45:16
Defending Against Accusations and Staying Separate
1:46:49
Initial Thoughts on Release and Life Plan
1:47:51
Comparison of County and Halfway House Experience
1:48:22
Furloughs and Visitation in the County
1:49:23
Personal Reflection on Incarceration and Visitation
1:50:24
Childhood Food and Memories
1:51:28
Realization of Time Served and Life Choices
1:52:00
Discovery of Angel's Foster Care Status
1:53:33
Post-Release and Case Management Issues
1:54:04
Regret and Anger towards Ex-Wife's Actions
1:54:36
Desire to Reunite with Son and Overcome Challenges
1:55:06
First Visit with Son and Emotional Reconnection
1:56:10
Court Proceedings and Determination to Get Son Back
1:57:43
Importance of Getting Any Job as a Felon
1:58:14
Personal Experience Working at a Donut Factory
1:59:47
Meeting Grandma for the First Time and Doctor Visits
2:01:22
Recognizing developmental differences in the child
2:01:54
Description of the child's physical limitations and abilities
2:02:26
Meeting with a doctor and discussing the child's condition
2:02:57
Grandma's involvement in the child's life and foster care
2:03:30
Visitation arrangements with the child's sister and grandma
2:04:02
Caseworker visits and the parent's focus on getting their son back
2:04:33
The parent's decision to focus on getting their son back and avoiding relationships
2:04:33
The child's placement and the parent's living situation
2:05:35
Comparing Parent-Child Relationship to TV Show
2:06:06
Working as an Apartment Manager and Bonus Incentives
2:06:36
Renting Properties and Financial Independence
2:08:09
Dating and Relationship Standards
2:08:39
The Speaker's Drinking Habits and Relationship Expectations - Initial Conversation
2:09:10
The Speaker's Past and His Mission to Find a Partner
2:09:40
Meeting the Future Wife on MySpace and Their First Date
2:10:11
Sharing His Past with the Future Wife and Her Friends' Reaction
2:11:13
The Speaker's Reflections on His Relationship and Future Plans
2:12:15
Adjusting to Life Outside and Family Relationships
2:14:18
Daily Life in Halfway House
2:14:48
Financial Struggles and Prioritizing Expenses
2:15:50
Challenges of Halfway House Life
2:16:20
Comparing Halfway Houses and Prison
2:16:53
Visiting Family and Friends
2:17:55
Relationships with Ex-Wife and Children
2:18:59
Dispute with Counselor and Halfway House Rules
2:19:29
Relationship with Ex-Wife and Job at Halfway House
2:20:30
Love and Support from Ex-Wife
2:22:37
Meeting and Getting Married Quickly
2:23:08
Financial Struggles After Marriage
2:23:39
Feeling Like a Loser and Negative Energy
2:25:45
The Speaker's Success and Family Responsibilities
2:26:17
Dealing with In-Laws and Personal Relationships
2:27:19
The Speaker's Past and Current Life
2:27:52
Emotional Reactions to Tragedy and Importance of Family
2:30:00
Impact of Father Figure Absence on Life Choices
2:31:04
Current Caregiving Responsibilities and Reflections
2:31:36
Prison Experience and Family Court Involvement
2:33:41
The Need for Fathers in Single-Parent Families
2:34:13
Prison Life and the Importance of Work Ethic
2:35:17
The Dream of a Good Marriage and Family
2:35:49
Providing for Future Generations
2:36:51
Sharing Life Story and Legacy
2:37:24
Closing Remarks and Request for Engagement
2:37:44
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